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Someday I’ll be interesting

Posted on November 19th, 2008 Tagged with Inane Rambling About Me Sucking, Personal, School Preparations Comments 2 replies

Woahhh. Okay, I originally meant to wait until I move rain-dance.org to my other domain (Dark Rose) before I start writing in this thing again, but seeing as it has almost been a month since a real update, I feel like I should write something for the select few who still visit. This is me proving I am not, in fact, 100% dead.

For the past month, I have been pretty busy. You wouldn’t guess it if you were actually here with me, but I have. I wrote my college application essay (those closest to me are well aware of this fact as I have been throwing it in their face for review every time I have a revised draft ready), drew the required pieces for the portfolio I am submitting, and am going to mail it all out very soon. I’m mad stressed. My mind is basically going into OMGFLAIL mode: What if I’m missing something? What if someone hijacks the envelope and steals my SSN? What if they don’t like my portfolio? What if they can’t OPEN my portfolio? Should my essay be double spaced or use 1.5 line height instead? Oh no, what if I don’t get in? What if I DO?! OH NOESSSSSSSSS.

So yes, I am going insane.

A quick list of Stuff That’s Happened

I’m very sorry that I haven’t been able to write more thoughtful things that aren’t “oh hi I did this today”, but I hope to as soon as my college stuff is in the mail and I have more time to panic about jobs. :P This journal makes me look bad, man. I’m much wittier in conversation, but still as boring!

A New Perspective

Posted on September 15th, 2008 Tagged with Personal Comments 4 replies

Today was an epic adventure that began at my grandparents’ apartment. Mom had a dentist appointment and also needed to work a few hours, and since I had an appointment too, she just dropped me off at my grandparents’ in order to save gas. Grandpa was the same as usual, generally unsociable but still offering small conversation whenever he peeked out from the bedroom. Similarly, Nana didn’t change much from the last time I visited her either and is still the kind and caring person I have always remembered her to be. I also got to see my uncle, Wayne, who has seen better days and also become much more of a wise ass than I remember him being, but then again we rarely see each other, so it could be a total lack of observation on my original part. Nana, uncle Wayne and I spent most of the time talking and looking over old, old photographs of people I rarely see. I also beat Nana in a game of Skip-Bo, muahaha! I’ve still got it!

Soon afterward, mom came to pick me up for my appointment, which I have been rather vague about in this post; it was for contacts. I have anticipated this moment for years and used to badger my parents about it all the time, but it was only until recently that they were within my grasp. I managed to get in as soon as I entered, yay for slow days; and oh man, if there is any word, any word at all that can possibly describe my first encounter with contacts, it would be frustrating. I literally sat there for an hour trying to get those bastards in my eyeballs and I’m lucky that the lady who was observing me had so much patience. Both she and mom gave me demonstrations on how to put them in, and when I finally got them both in, another lady came over and said that I had to take them out. Apparently they’re not allowed to let clients leave the store until they’ve demonstrated that they can both put them in and take them out. You can imagine my irritation.

Fortunately, taking them out is far easier than putting them in, and then the eye doctor was able to see me. That was lucky too, because my vision seems to be a little bit blurry. The doctor said it was because my eyes aren’t “perfectly round” (this had me, my mom and the poor lady that was stuck observing me laughing our heads off) and also because I’m not used to them. My glasses seem so much sharper though…

I had to stand still as soon as I left the eye place because it was all so much to take in. I have worn glasses for ten years; I had forgotten what it felt like to have the wind sweep across my face without a shield, what it felt like to see everything without weight on my face. It all felt like I was seeing and experiencing everything for the first time, even the common noise of an automobile passing by seemed new, and I was so moved by the experience that I almost started crying. I’m glad I didn’t though, because my eyes were still really watery after all the poking I did to them and my complexion really couldn’t afford anymore blotches.

Mom and I went to the grocery store afterward, since we needed to buy something for dinner and she didn’t want to spend anymore money at Taco Bell for awhile (blast their delicious chalupas!) and I came too so that I could marvel at boxes depicting food with my newly found sense of sight. We found something relatively easy to make and, just as we were heading out, I spotted Chris, who graduated high school the year before I did. This is the kid who introduced me to Hellsing, DN Angel and Petshop of Horrors, so you can imagine my initial excitement. Our reunion went something like this:

Me: Chris?
Chris: Amber?
Us: *hug!*
Me: How are you?
Chris: Good, you?!
Me: I’m fine!
Chris: I work in a soup kitchen now, so I’m greasy.
Me: Ohhh.
Chris: Well, have a good one!
Me: You too!
*parting of ways*

It was really kind of sad, because I thought of asking him for contact details and decided it was better not to in a split second. I wish I could remember the reasoning behind that decision, but maybe it was better this way. After all, if we didn’t have anything more to say then, what would I possibly want to talk to him about later?

So then mom and I locate and head towards the car, and she comments that the interaction between Chris and I was extremely awkward. Just as we’re about to get in the car, some random guy with a pot belly and a beard calls, “HEY! HOW ARE THE CONTACTS?!” from behind us and I replied “FINE!” before asking mom, “How does he know about the contacts?” I originally deduced that he had been in the waiting room and witnessed the fail that was my first experience with contacts, but it turns out that he works with my dad. “Well, that was awkward,” I mimicked, and we both laughed as mom pulled into the highway.

Today was a good day.

Akismet Fails

Posted on August 28th, 2008 Tagged with Internet, Personal Comments 3 replies

Lately I have received several hilarious comments on the entry about Chip waddling on the floor. They were mixed in with my regular comments as awaiting moderation rather than spam, and they were just… wow. Off the top of my head, some were like this:

This is great and all, but what does this have to do with pointy forks in China? :)

I understand your opinion, but I don’t agree with it. I think it will take more time for me to ease into that view, but I’ll tolerate you for now.

Great review! Next time focus on something more awesome, like Transformers.

These are just what I remember and aren’t direct quotes, because I deleted them after the 20 minutes or so I spent laughing at them. I mean, really? Luckily, Akismet came out with an update today, so it should do its job better. Or at least, I hope so!

Otherwise, I’m on a major job hunt like woah. Also, this is the beginning of my college preparations here. I have my eye on a private university and, as I constantly pester friends about it, I feel like I have a good chance of getting in. Still intimidating as hell, but we’ll see. I have to make a portfolio and everything, so this should be interesting.

Insert Maniacal Laughter Here

Posted on August 13th, 2008 Tagged with Entertainment, Fun, Midnight, Personal, Regulus Comments 2 replies

So, I’ve been fairly busy lately and getting down to serious business with my room. It was a complete disaster until mom came to me one day and offered to help me out by buying things to help organize it and stuff. If you looked at my room now compared to how it was before I think your jaw might just drop. It feels very open and clean now, an atmosphere the likes of which my room hasn’t quite seen since it was first built. I consider it done, though mom thinks it could do with some dusting and that the drawing table could be clearer. Whatever - it’s already ten times better than it was!

Other than that, I have a copy of Pokémon Leaf Green. At first the tiny graphics were killing me because I was so used to Diamond, but I’m getting used to it now that I’ve actually started playing it, whereas before I was just grabbing the starters for Diamond’s Pal Park. I’m having a lot of fun with it and it feels like I never left Red at all. I have decided that I will be giving every Pokémon I get in that game a nickname. Why don’t you try and guess who Hameln, Silver, Aero and Quinn are? A hint: I’m in Pewter City and I just beat Brock, so the Pokémon caught are all from the areas leading up to Pewter.

Oh, and I bought yet another fish on my recent shopping trip. His name is Midnight and he’s a dark blue violet crowntail with black and red fins. I feel guilty about it since anyone would’ve grabbed Midnight if they spotted him as opposed to one of the fish with a less attractive appearance. He and Regulus like flaring their gills at one another (yes, Regulus is finally doing it) and they’re both settled in their homes quite nicely. Yay fishies!

Blast From The Past

Posted on July 15th, 2008 Tagged with Personal, Rambling, Reflections Comments 2 replies

Oh my… is this real? A day where I’m the only human at home? YES!!!! The reality of the past week is that I haven’t had much time to myself to play music loudly, work on websites or really do anything without feeling paranoid that someone is watching me. And of course as soon as I wake up today, WordPress 2.6 comes out and automatically puts down all the careful and investigative work I did to get my comments working again! GAH! But that’s okay, because it makes up for it by telling me when a plug-in needs to be updated without my even needing to visit the plug-in page. That in itself is a huge yay for me because I rarely visit that page unless I’m installing a new one, which results in several “this has a new version! Upgrade?” notes under each when I do see it. Also, comments submit much faster now with the “real” thing instead of the work around I used.

But anyway, the real reason I am posting is because yesterday was my mother’s birthday. Rather than celebrating the years to come, I found myself looking at all the CDs that I’d accumulated while I was back in middle school. And that is hilarious because when I was younger, I only knew about popular music, mainstream stuff. That means a lot of Christina Aguilera, N*Sync, Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, Aqua and A*Teens. Looking through those track lists was epic, but it was even funnier when I decided to throw the CDs into the computer and actually listen to them rather than recall them from memory.

It was indescribable. I was so amused and surprised, because I can’t believe I ever listened to this stuff and liked it. I maintain that I still love the rhythms and melodies of the songs, but the lyrics suck. For example, Backstreet Boys’ “The Call.” I like that song’s beat and melody, but really, the lyrics are about some guy two timing his girlfriend, which is even more hilarious when you look at the members of the band and realize that most of them aren’t even pretty enough to attract one female.

As I went through everything, I wondered where everybody went. Everyone that used to be popular seems to be less pronounced nowadays. I mean, Britney has fame still, but it’s for her mistakes rather than her music. It’s a shame because I honestly did enjoy her early work. Actually, I have Oops I Did It Again and Baby One More Time on tape cassette. I wonder if it would be considered legal to download the mp3 versions off of the internet when I have them in the form of cassettes?

I also found a huge stack of photos from things like my birthday party in the fifth grade, my dogs, random family photos, the trip to Washington D.C. and the trip to Canada. Looking back on it, I had some nice hair. It was long and shiny and a pretty shade of brown without outside help. Now I have to fight it with a straightening iron after I shower to get it to look even vaguely similar. What happened?! Oddly, both of the trips organized by my school (D.C. and Canada) threw us in a zoo for an entire day. I love animals to death, but surely there is another major attraction in such large tourist places? Because really, I could see an elephant or a tiger at probably any zoo.

While those memories were a little nice, they left me feeling bitter afterward. I hated school because of the people that were there and how no matter what I did, I was never quite on equal ground with anyone. I was also one of the biggest targets for pranks and cruelty as I never really stood up for myself, and I deeply regret never having turned around to tell those people of how very much I loathed them for who they were, to kick them below the belt for once, and to show them how much damage they dealt without even realizing it. I have always been one to bottle everything up inside and, because I’ve done it all these years, I am still very hateful towards those people. Even though I haven’t seen or spoken to any of them for a year it feels like I was just talking to them yesterday. I suppose it’s a mark to show I still have a lot of growing up to do, but I doubt I’ll ever let the grudge go.

Bah, those people suck. In any case, would anyone be interested in seeing some of the pictures? They would be very late considering everything is a year or so old, but they’re all I’ve got and you don’t have any idea what my pets look like! Well, besides Chippy of course.

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